It's been awhile since I updated here. A lot has happened. Here is a summary. Feel free to ask questions if you are fuzzy on the details.
Monday (my b-day) we met for dinner and then went out to play some games and mini golf. We had a lot of fun together and there was quite a bit of physical affection from both of us. After mini golf we sat and talked for awhile and I broke a DB rule by bringing up the relationship (in the context of him buying a house) but he responded well and we did not argue. Eventually it was dropped. We ended up ML again and it was even better than the week before. Better than in a long time come to think of it. All in all a good date and a wonderful way to spend my birthday.
The next few days we texted a lot and he was even starting to initiate a lot of our conversations and asking me how I am doing or what I am up to, etc. All good stuff.
I had my individual counseling session and it went well. The counselor asked me a lot of questions about our relationship and my past and I think I did a good job staying neutral and not getting angry. It's weird but when I look back I sometimes don't remember why things were so bad in the first place. It's like I miss him so much I only remember the good things. Does that make sense? Anyone else do this?
On Friday he texted to let me know that he had five days off from work and had schedualed his individual counseling session for Monday. We texted back and forth all day and he asked me if I wanted to go for breakfast before his session and then we would see about hanging out afterwards. I agreed and we made the plans.
So yesterday we had our breakfast date. It was a little rocky. We had good conversation over breakfast and then went out to a bookstore and then a movie/music store at the mall to kill some time before he had to leave for his appointment. Again there was a fair amount of physical affection from both of us. We ended around noon when he had to leave to get to the counselors office. He kissed me before he left and said goodbye. I was kind of sad because he was leaving and I did not know for sure when I was going to see him again.
5 minutes after he drove away from the parking lot he texted me to see if I was mad at him. I said no and asked if he was mad at me. He said that he wasn't he just got the feeling that I was mad at him. I said that I was just sad and that I missed him. He sent a question mark back. I said "I just miss the way we used to be. It's hard to be with you and yet not be with you." He asked if there was anything he could do and I said "go to your session and really listen" He said alright and I thanked him. I thought it was very sweet that he offered to do something. In the past it would have been "Oh well. Too bad" kind of attitude. It's definatly a step in the right direction.
After his session he texted to ask about getting together and I offered to meet him but then we deided not to get together because he had a lot on his mind and needed time alone to process. He did say the session went well and told me quite a bit about what they talked about. Our next session will be awhile away because our counselor is going on vacation but the next time we go will be as a couple which will be interesting.
I was sad that we could not get together again because I do not know when we will see each other again. He lives an hour away now and is going to be busy with Army stuff and with his job. It's hard to be content with one day a week when you are used to living together. Oh well. It's still more than I had before.
I am fine now. We talked today and we might get together on Thursday which would be wonderful. I'm just struggling with patience. I am in a place where I feel like things are going so well we should just get back together again and wonder why it is taking so long but at the same time I know that there is such a long road ahead of us. I just hope I don't go crazy before then.
Any encouragment/comments/advice would be more than welcome. Thanks for the support.
