I feel for you. I know how confusing all this cycling seems to be and I can't imagine what you are going through. My situation is much more black and white; not the constant emotions. But maybe that's because you are dealing with a woman and not a man...
I would be furious about the BB gun too. You are totally right on that.
Good luck! I keep reading so you are not alone...
M 39 H 34 D 6 M almost 8 years T 11 years Bomb: 6/5/08