Do not call him and vent because it will fall on deaf ears. I think it is OK to be angry and even God says we can be angry BUT do NOT sin.
I am not sure as to why you are not taking care of your financial situation with your Husband.
Why is he not giving you any maintainance money? Why is there no alimony? Are you afraid to ask him for money?
IRMAT you are going to have to find the strength to go through this properly and that means getting some financial advice from an Attorney and making sure your needs are met.
This has absolutely nothing to do with being ungodly. You do not have to discuss it with your Husband first, but you do have a responsibility to yourself especially after being married for as long as you have been.
I am not sure if this is what you are ready to hear but I will tell you that your Husband will make many bad financial decisions and he will piss away everyhting that the two of you have built together.
MLC'ers are financially wreckless and if you do not act now there may be nothing left for you to fight for.
You have to get your car out of the pawn shop first. You must not be so prideful as to not ask for help.
IRMAT please take care of your financial situation ASAP!!!!!!!
In answer to your question, yes there were many bad days and some of them I handled well and there were others that I totally screwed up, its a process.
Being still in the Refiner's Fire was a good place for me to be, it kept my head clear, it helped me to detach from the insanity and it helped me to be able to pray for my Husband and our Marriage.
((((((((hugs)))))))
There can be no testimony without a test. I am praying to go through this test and come out the other end with a new and better marriage then before.
