Yes, I had bad days but you need to get a hold of yourself. You are allowing the enemy to take over your life with negative thoughts and feelings.
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Do you have a pastor or some friends that you can talk to where you live?
You need to pray a few times a day and ask God to help you to:
get these evil thoughts and negative feelings out of your mind forgive
and please do try and let him go and let him be.
Do not worry or be concerned with who he is having lunch with or who he may be seeing. That should not be your concern at this moment. You have to get a hold of yourself because if you don't, this situation can not only make you ill, but you could become so obsessed with what he is doing and with whom which could lead you to do things you will regret.
I really don't know what to say except what I have. Learn how to enjoy your family, get to know them better, do things with them, join a church group, etc.
It does get easier as time goes on.
The Bomb: 08/05 H moves out: 06/2006 H moves back: 01/07 & Out again: 01/07 H moves back: 03/08 & Out again: 04/08 H moves back: 05/09 & Out again: 07/09 Divorced 08-12 Kids: 22, 20, 19
