Mulesqb - Still alive and Kickin'

[mulesqb]

Thanks KJ - Good points. The hugging has been big for me. She's been so cold for so long that I actually felt nervous leaning towards her to hug her. One time I just rubbed her back because i felt I was overdoing it. At night she has been asking me to rub her legs because they hurt her. She's been walking Duncan a lot. I have been doing that for her. It's very difficult because that is how she used to initiate ML. After the third time of her asking I thought maybe she was trying to initiate so I asked her if she wanted to and she said no. She apologized and said that because she feels depressed she just has no desire right now. I told her that was ok but i have been trying to do just what you say so she knows I am ok with her feeling that way and am just there to support her.

This morning when I left for work I asked to hug her and she did it. When i got in the car I felt I shouldn't have done it and should have just said goodbye and have a nice day in a nice upbeat tone.

Honestly, while I really do want to ML to her right now - I'm nervous about it because it's been so long. So right now I wouldn't mind intimacy without ML so that we can build back up to it. I think jumping right back into ML maybe a little too fast at this point.