CB - If we could just PM on this forum I would gladly accept your offer of the PM book & CD. Unfortunately w/o PM no PM. \:\( I'll probably just buy it at lunch, I want to start reading it right away.

Thanks for the other book recommendation. I have compiled quite a list of books to read.

I hate to admit the not measuring up haunts me once in a while. The worst thing though is she doesn't measure up to herself earlier in our relationship. I had several passionate girlfriends before meeting her but I don't really think of them any more. The bad part of the A's was that the passion seemed to just come automatically with them. Of course some of that may have been the newness and excitement of it all, but I think they were just more open sexually to try things and to talk during sex. They wanted it, they wanted me. It is folly, take it from me: Do Not Have an Affair!

The thing is I know passion from her when it is there. I want to feel it with her again. Of course it won't be like the others, I don't want that and I don't think of them, I live in the moment with her. It's like some part of her has died and sex is just something to hurry up and get done with. Her passion and desire is what I want. Unless she wants this for herself I have no way to make it return.

~5