Monday night we ML again. You would think I'd be a good mood right now.... I'm not.
Is it too much to ask to be kissed while ML? It all felt so one sided. How do you reach someone that doesn't want to be reached? For me it actually felt pretty good and for the most part was good, but I could tell she just wasn't present in the moment. It takes so much away from it when she is like that.
Am I just expecting too much? Am I chasing something that will never return in her? You can't tell your wife to be sexier. Isn't that just as bad as commenting on her weight?
I hope we are just experiencing a low point and can get back on track. I am still giving her the good in me, showing her good cheer when I can. I am keeping up the chores that I promised to do for her. I am showering at night so I smell good in bed for her. I always wear my ring now (something I used to not do).
I really need to plan a romantic evening with her or something. I wish she were more receptive to that sort of thing. It's like a joke to her for some reason.
I'm sorry it sounds like I'm grasping at straws here but that is how I'm feeling right now. I'm desperate to turn things around, to make her want to feel sexy again, to make her want me again.
