Ms. Imp and Her Magic Kumquat 2

[girlfromipanema]

(((((((((Everyone))))))))

I'm so thankful for all of you. I've said it before, but I don't know where I'd be if I had not found this place. The support is carrying me through my darkest moments.

I don't know if you all feel this way, too, but I feel like my life is being reduced to pennies on the dollar. The last four years of my life have been dedicated, consumed, completely focused on being the best wife I could be... and it was meaningless to the man which my energy and love was directed. M#ther F*cker. Sorry, guys. I am a crude, foul mouthed Ms Imp when I'm mad. I can't imagine how I would feel if I had dedicated 10, 15, 20, 25 years of my life to someone. I'm hopeful I would keep myself together, but if I feel this 'broken' after only 4 measly, piddly years, I don't know... What frightens me is knowing someone as honorable, classy, respected, kind and giving as my husband used to be could turn into what he's become, how can I ever trust another man to not do the same thing?

Last night I was busy packing things away. He commented that he has started to separate our accounts, blah, blah, blah. We were discussing the division of assets and I asked him what was in the locked box. His answer: "personal stuff." What a jerknosedic&wad F@cktard. It's a good thing I don't have a pistol, or that box would be blown to smithereens!

I must remember to take the high road and leave this marriage with my dignity in tact.

I'm feeling very bitter this morning. A good workout will help, I'm sure.

I LOVE YOU GUYS.

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