B called me tonight. I didn't answer. Was tempted to call her back, but I didn't. No message left.

Why does she always seem to call me when I'm down?

Then D11 calls fifteen minutes later. We are on the phone for like 30 minutes.

I had been calling them through out the day. MIL was supposed to drop by to see them or take them some lunch because she was off. She never showed. I got off early today and went to the tax office. CROWDED. I saw a girl that I knew waiting in line. Former co-worker. Now she works for the same place as B.

I'm telling you, my world is small.

Just talk in passing. I get out and check on kids again. Still no word from MIL. I ask them if they want anything. Mickey D's. I call GBG. Left on hold at her work number. I hang up. She calls back.
"Hey, you know your mom never showed up."
"She didn't?" I know she knew. D11 told me she just talked to her. "Well, I guess I can't trust ANYONE."

I remembered that when we both got back from the store yesterday, she was on her phone. As we were taking the table in the apartment together she tells me,
"That was Robin." My exSIL. The enabler. I just look. I don't say anything. I have nothing but contempt for her now.
"When I need them, its always something. Now when I don't need them and they want to come around? Uh uh. Tells me who my friends are. I can't rely on anyone."

I was like 'Hello, who the hell is helping you right NOW stupid?'

Anyway, I tell her that they were expecting lunch or to go somewhere, so they held off on eating lunch.
"Do you mind if I take them some Mickey D's?"
"Ohhh, poor things. No, I don't mind."
"I'll just drop it off."
"Thats fine."
"Do you want anything?"
It was already 4:30.

"Uhhhhh.....no........., I'll be ok."
"Okay. Talk to you later."
"Bye."

Hung at the apartment. Girls happy to see me. D11 drew and colored some pictures for me. Me and her, and me and Juli. Like 8 pictures. I tell her to keep them so she can make be a book. I also want GBG to see them. D11 tells me how she helped put the table together with her mom. Not sure how it came up but D11 mentions that mom said that she was broke.
"Well she just bought all this stuff."
"I know. She says that its expensive starting over."

I tell them I have to get going.

So tonight we are talking and she tells me,
"Daddy, know what?"
"What baby girl?"
"I missed you as soon as you walked out the door."
"Me too. I missed you as I left."

They just got back from Kohls. And Starbucks.
While talking, GBG tells her to ask what time I get off tomorrow. I tell her 6. I hear,
"Ask him if he can come check on ya'll because I get out at 6:30."
D11 relays and I say ok.
"And ask him if he can bring Miguels wallet. And some sausages."
I hear her laughing at her self. D11 laughs too.
"So mom wants me to bring the wallet and SAUSAGES?"
"Yeah, she's been wanting sausage for breakfast."

I agree. "Anything else?"

In the background,
"Uhhhhh.....no, if he wants to.......no, that's all I can think of."

So I'll get to see them again tomorrow. Maybe twice. I might take the wallet and breakfast sausages in the morning before I go to work. Sounds like GBG is going in late to be getting off late. She'll be there in the morning. And then I'll stop by after I get off work. Only a 30 minute difference between us, though. GBG thinks funny. If I get there, she should be there only 30 minutes later.

Lots of I love you's. I tell D11 big bear hugs to her and to Juli and to mom, too. "I miss all of ya'll."

Maybe I'll forget the sausages and wallet. I don't think I should go if GBG is going to be there, too. Maybe just a quick stop after work. Not hang out. Leave before she shows up. Also leave off some antenna's for the tv's. She has no cable, so no channels at all.

Am I doing acts of service? Just being kind. Its not really meant for her. More for the kids.

Or am I rescuing?


Me 47, WW 38
SS18, D15, D10

Good Bye Girl. No longer SAYING she's moving out. GBG moved out 8-1-08

"I have now decided to enjoy life instead of figure it out."