Memories keep sneaking in....I still miss him!

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Help me deal with the fact that when H comes to pick up the kids they act like it's no big deal----like something they've done for years. And, if you can help me with that, help me understand why I still feel like I need to bend over backwards to make his visits on his schedule......urghhhhhh.........why do I have to be the one alone!!! (can you tell he has the kids tonight??)

You know I truly must be insane, after pulling all the weight around here for years, and knowing about OW............and I would still take him back.............

I hope my kids don't see this as ok---------although they seem to act like it. Maybe it's H's influence---and the way he can act like everything is just A.O.K.!!!!!!!! We just live in separate houses....................