MLC BS

[Patrick325]

I don't feel married but I wish I did. I look at the indentation on my ring finger and hope that it doesn't go away before I can put it back on again. I guess the only reason I want to wear it is to show her my feelings about our marriage. But I don't know what her reaction would be==probably think I am pathetic. I just wish I could stop thinking about this every day...It has been over a year now since it all started..I can't believe I have made it this far...but it still feels like it will drag on forever...every spare moment trying to figure out why, or what I should have done or said...it's like a long drawn out torture....and I'm sure my kids are suffering too..