For the Guy with Kids and a WW 8

[hopeful4her]

Puppy, when I think about her and the OM together, my blood boils. But at the end of the day, my love for her is there.

When I THINK about what she has done, I waver. I think that HAS to be normal.

I hear friends and family tell me how she is not worth it and that I just need to move on.

I go through the motions. I have tried talking to other women. I feel pretty strong recently. I'm hoping that this seperation will help her 'see'. I'm PRAYING that it helps ME see. Tests me. I'm hoping it finds me NOT loving her like I thought I did.

I pray to God to help subside my love for her. If I love something, let it go.

So I did.

I let her go.

I don't want to be the kid that loved his butterfly so much that he couldn't let it go. Held it tightly in his hands. But its wings just disinegrated in his hands. Its beauty was gone because he couldn't let it go. It wanted to fly. He didn't want it to.

But your gonna hate hearing this.

I believe that I was MEANT to be her husband. That God put us together for something big. To be the ones to break our families cycles. We were the most UNLIKELY of people to get together.

She is what I am not. I am what she is not, but there is a little bit of us IN each other.

That is what my yin and yang sunburst on my shoulder represents to me. We were made for each other. Together making one. To take this journey and be the example for our children. I AM her rescuer. I AM her protector. I AM her life partner. I AM.....

for her.