Told her how I stood my ground on not letting W and OM take kids on week-long camping trip, despite the dreaded "stare" and a follow-up lobbying attempt. C thought that was a positive step.
When C asked how I spent my weekend without the kids, I told her about hanging out at a local watering hole on Friday (and then Saturday) nights. Although she said it sounded like fun, she also noted that I described each night as a "little weird." I told her that it felt strange to hang in a college bar and socialize with that crowd (even if I surrounded myself with Brothers). She wanted to know if I thought it ironic that I spent my weekend hanging with kids half my age... when part of my gripe about OM is his being 30. I pointed out that this was my first baby-steps out into the socializing world and that I was just using the situation to try to find people closer to my own age. I live in a college town. The bars are all within walking distance. The patrons of the bars tend to be... college students. Once I feel more comfortable, I'll expand my geographic base.
We got into a discussion about how I'm a serial monogamist who has pretty much been in relationships since he was 19. I crave companionship, yet have never had to actively search for it. It always found me. I don't do "alone" very well. Hell, part of the reason I went our on Saturday, despite my fatigue, was that I didn't want to be home alone, in a quiet house.
My "homework" from my C is to, at some point in the next two weeks, face my discomfort/fear and try to be alone one night. No calling folks, no visiting people, no going out... just me and my lonesome.
Me: 47 Kids: 2 boys, 14 & 8 Bomb: 5/5/08 Married: 16 years, together 20 Divorce final 8/11/10 I remarried, to an amazing woman: 3/17/12... "Once in awhile, in an ordinary life, love gives us a fairy tale"
