I know what you mean about the stages of grief, I hit them in very random orders as well and just because you more to another the others are not behind you.
Our anniversary is the 20th and I have the same questions. Lucky it is on Wed so seeing each other is out of the question. I don't have to ask she does not have to say no. I found a great picture of her and her Gpapa as a kid fishing. She has told me this story several times over the years, I am going to frame that and send it to her, with a very simple card. (maybe not even a anniversary card) and maybe four roses (when in high school I got her roses for each month until about the eight month and I could not afford to keep it up so its kind of a inside joke)
Something nice but no pressure I think is best. Is there anything you know he would appreciate that would fall into true giving, since you are not excepting anything in return?
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