Onward but not so Upward right now

[mishka422]

AnewAmy - What do you mean by meetup groups? I am in a Divorce Care group that is wonderful. I have met some really great people that way. We are all in so much trauma and turmoil right now though that outside of the group we have a hard time getting together.

I laugh with my friends and co-workers that it's sad that the only thing I look forward to every week is my Thursday night group meeting and the waffle house afterward.

Karen - I'm definitely going to look into my park and rec dept and see what classes they are offering. I know they usually offer yoga. I'd like that. I've been having one heck of a time getting time for myself because of my sick mother. She makes me feel like I'm abandoning her because I'm not home in the evening. She's just going to have to get over it. It's not like she's totally helpless, she just can't cook for herself and she doesn't like being alone. She'll live through it though. I just need to be more forceful about what I need. I don't look out for myself enough. It's always been about everyone else in my life so I guess I just have to let some of that go. It just feels so selfish.

You are such wonderful people. I appreciate all of your help and advice more than I can ever say. I do get myself into such sad, hopeless states and I feel like nothing will ever be good again and then I read all of your stories and posts and instantly know that I am NOT alone.

I'm here for you all always!