Well, I was able to keep a PMA this morning. The attorney though said that she could not take the case because it was a conflict of interest. So, I guess this gets put off until W makes an appointment with another attorney.
W wants to hurry up and file so she can feel like she is moving on. She is not in a big hurry to go all the way through the process though.
We then went and ate breakfast then to the school to enroll the kids. W did see a more outgoing friendlier me. I talked to quite a few parents and some of the teenagers in SD16's class. Surprising even myself that I was able to feel good and joke around with them.
At breakfast told her I was playing in a softball tourney this weekend. One of the girls on the team told my W that she wanted to date me. She did not say anything but I think it bothered her. Then she went on about me dating. I told her I probably would when this was done and I sort things out. I said I wasn't now because it went against my beliefs to date until this was over. I don't think she liked that to much. Just gave me a funny look. She did almost start crying at the restaurant and needed to leave.
W then asked about putting D11 on our cellphone plan. I told her to wait about a month when our contract is up. I told her I can then put the contract in her name and just go to a prepaid plan for myself. W said that she did not mind having me on the same contract with her.
When she dropped me off she gave me a big hug and started crying. W said that why does it hurt so much to do something she feels she needs to do. I think the hug and tears where just from guilt.
When I woke up this morning and thought about last night I realized that after the first reaction it really did not bother me anymore. I quit awhile back letting my emotions go off of her actions. She has to live with what she does, I just have to live with my actions and choices during this time.
Got to go over tonight and do some laundry. Get some bills sorted out to pay ect. See what tonight brings.
A warrior does not give up on what he loves, he finds the love in what he does
