I can't believe that one session of MC could have me thinking about so many things in a new way. One thing the counselor told me is that people get into relationships to meet needs and that we get out of relationships when our needs are no longer met. So in essence, I became a WAW because I had unmet needs. Okay, no new revelation there. However, we did discuss OM a bit during the first session and for the first time I forced myself to admit aloud (even though I already knew this) that I got involved with him because he met the needs that H wasn't. So now I have been thinking, "Do I really feel as deeply about OM as I think I do, or do I hold onto him so tightly simply because he is meeting those unmet needs that H couldn't/wouldn't?"
I had an astounding thought last night. If I could combine both men into one person, I would probably be 100% happy with that new creation. But as things are now, I can't be 100% happy with either one of them for different reasons. So now I'm thinking, if this is the case, maybe I shouldn't be with either one of them...
Maybe this counseling thing is not such a good idea... ?
Me (WAW) 30 H (LBS) 31 T since 6/10/1994 M 8/8/98 No kids S 3/10/08 D filed 6/9/08; put on hold 7/14/08 D finalized 10/13/08
