Well Saturday night I got "GO TO SLEEP!" from her when I tried touching her back. At that point I got out of bed and went in the den, I couldn't lie there next to her. In the morning I found out that she had a stomach ache and a sinus headache. I wish she had just said that in the first place and told her so when I was given the real reason. That would not have upset me but it felt like rejection at the time instead with no reason given.
Sunday night after sitting together on the couch it felt like she might be in the mood......NOT! W - "Do we have to do something tonight? I need to get up early tomorrow."
Me - Do we need to have another talk about this again?
W - "It's never enough for you is it? We did something last week."
Yeah but it had been 2 weeks before that and it felt like a chore from you. It might as well be none at all if you don't really want me. I want to touch you, it's how I show you I love you.
"Are you marking it on a calendar or something? It's really off-putting when I know that you are running to the computer to write in some journal."
I'm just trying to make our relationship as good as it can be. Is there something wrong with that? Please continue reading SSM, I know you have stopped.
"I just haven't had time to read anything." (She did have time to read a novel when she had stopped reading SSM though.)
Just please read it again, everything that I am feeling is said in that book better than I can say it. Promise me that you will read it.
"I guess this means that we have to do something now."
No we don't have to do anything now. Why don't you let me rub your back though. It doesn't have to lead to anything. I like touching your skin.
"I think there is something else that you are wanting to touch."
I gave her a nice back rub. Of course it made me horny as hell massaging her back but I controlled myself and before I was done got over the feeling of wanting to take her. When I finished we laid and snuggled for a while.
W, I Love You
"I Love You too."
I'm glad, all I want is for us to love one another.
Will she ever see that I just want to ML with her to show her how much I do really love her??? Will she ever ML to me to show me how much she loves me and not do it because she feels she is obligated to? Why does she not see this for what it is?
