Real Life part 6

[Starshyne]

Well XH claims that he broke up with the OW. He sounded really serious about needing to end it with her. I guess she has been disappearing late at night and he doesn't know where she is, won't answer the phone, etc. (sound familar????) I just hope that this is the end of all of her drama for me. I hope she doesn't come to my house or anything and blame me. I doubt it, but there is a small chance.

Meanwhile, XH wants me back. He keeps asking if I could take him back and if there is any chance of me taking him back. It breaks my heart all over again. I mean this is exactly what we all wanted isn't it? DBing worked and yet it is too late. I told him that it is too late and I think that was one of the hardest things for me to say. I wanted to scream...YES! Come back to me! I still am in love with you! But I know it wouldn't be wise for me, after he treated me so poorly and everything to take him back. We are divorced and it is too late. I still wish I had waited a little longer. But if I hadn't gone through with the divorce, who knows what could have happened. Just as I expected, that was the wake up call he needed But why did it have to go all the way to the divorce before he woke up?

I do want him to be my friend. Nothing more than that. I want to be friends with him as long as the man I used to know is truely back for good. I don't want some mean guy that wears my clothes, I want to be friends with the easy going funny man I fell in love with to begin with.

I sort of made XH think that I have something going with that guy that I am friends with (the cutie). And while both of us are not lookig for a serious relationship at this point and bascially just get together now and then to watch movies and
b!tch about our lives, XH thinks it is something more. I just let him believe that.