Thanks Cinco... heck I dont even understand myself at this time of the month sometimes. I can see now that I also could just take what he says with a grain of salt.
....yet I am more and more getting frustrated with this than anything.
I feel like a rose and I think he sees a dandelion as far as effort goes anyway.
As far as the oral thing,,, he has always had this feeling of I am only doing it to please him. I actually enjoy it tremendously. We have talked about this back and forth and looked at it inside out and upside down...???
I cannot seem to convince him I am doing it for my enjoyment. I too have often felt this way and know it has nothing to do with him they are my issues... and ah the issue thing.
Only I have them... it is an American thing!~
I have gotten him to see x, y or z but this subject is just *&&^%%$#$%^^&?!
I keep wrestling with do I keep doing them? Do I take a break? and when he wants to give me oral do I say no thanks?
My mind is going nuts and yeah the hormonal thing I guess isnt helping at this time. Thanks Cinco.. you made me smile.
I guess I felt like I was doing so well and yeah I know it is just one comment but I was proud of myself and he made it seem like it was contrived....
Oh well just venting.... just thinking out loud it has always helped me in the past.
I think I also felt I could take a little break and just be and now I see I cant ....
also he complained like "yeah sure "
when I said I was horny the other day... he has been spending oodles of time outside "hanging out" or going out with the CREW! So I said "how would you know when I dont even get 5 minutes with you?"
Sorry guess I feel like a hot mess like my girlfriend in Florida always says.
I love him but he still has the ability to confuse me! ????????????? ~Ali
