Completely and utterly devastated--how to cope

[istherehope]

And just one more follow up since I need to share somewhere...he just left, got into the cab. He gave me a hug, and a brief emotionless peck on the lips--not actually sure who initiated that. He said "I'll give you a call". That was pretty lame, and sounds like some distant guy I would have dated in highschool, so not too thrilled. I also said--see you Friday, and he said "why?". Again--nice. We have a counseling session scheduled for Friday so I just reminded him...

So, now I'm in my house for the next 3 nights. I'm happy to be here, but at the same time it's so bittersweet because I need to act as if it is not my place anymore. I am so tempted to put little reminders of myself all over the house. I wonder if there is anything that I can do while here so that when he comes home on Thursday night, he will think fondly of me?

Ugh
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