Hi Onedge: We all do that. It is our initial instinct to lash out because we are hurt. Put it in the past. You cannot change the past, but you can change the future.
It is hard, but you can pull through. Read DR and post. We have a great board here with alot of support if you want to vent, whine, and be angry. One of the greatest things I have found is the ability to post a potential email here and get really great feedback on what to send and what not to send!!!
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..