Memories keep sneaking in....I still miss him!

[Treese]

Di....the similiarities of our sitches is so scary.....my H won't talk to his best friend of 40 years and mine of 30 because his best friend has been talking to me....isn't that sad....they have been friends since kindergarten...but his best friend was there for me....that is who I went to a long time ago before I found this board and all the DBing stuff.....he still calls and checks on me....i love them...he and his wife....all of us have been friends for quite a long time....and they both know who OW is cause we all went on vacation together....isn't that nice...BLAH!!!!


My MIL is struggling right now also....H's brother has been in and out of jail for drugs....its very sad.....and his mom is going to be 73 but wont let son fall on his own...he is 41...I understand because it is her son but she is killing herself...she is worried about him...about H and I....it's taking its toll on her health....Im worried something will happen to her....my H doesnt even realize that I'm the one who has been there for his entire family all these years....h's mom called me at 3 in the morning one night wanting to take a bunch of pills and end it all....I'm the one who talked to her for 3 hours to keep her busy.....and H's sister is struggling too...because of all this crap...doesn't feel as though she even has a family right now....I talk to her all the time ...she is my best friend....I talked to her yesterday and she is very depressed.....again...I am the one taking care of them....not that I feel that I have to or want a pat on the back...it is just the person that I am....I give....I take care....I love my family....and H doesnt even see that.....that's the sad part....I've have taken such good care of him that maybe he expected it....I dont' know....but you see a little background of why maybe my H went off the deep end....his mom is mad at H and his sister because of their brother....screwed up....they can't help him...he's 41 and has to fall on his own...kind of like our H's.....they have to crash on their own and in time I think they will....who knows....

anyway sorry to go off on this but I had to vent....

D16 went to volleyball tryouts this morning and the coach told her not to do anything today becuase she was just at the doctor...she called crying....this will affect her tryout....everyone....I need help with prayers....my D has been through so much and feels like everything is going wrong...she has worked very hard for this team and I want her to do her best...she will be out there tomorrow trying to impress the coaches and make up for today....if you all have a spare moment in your prayer closets please ask for strength and courage for her....thanks so much....

Treese