I just wanted to say that I'll be rooting for you. I haven't had time to read your whole story (been kind of caught up in my own personal crisis), but I can relate to your feelings of loneliness and the frustration at being told that the entire marriage was a farce. (I was told the same thing by my H). I feel very confident that he's lost his mind. I've been told that people use their memories to reenforce what they need to have reenforced. In fact, the C who told me that said that if truth be told, i was probably remembering the marriage a little better than it actually was because it suited my purpose. Somehow that made it seem a litle better.

So, keep that in mind...you are remembering it too good, and he's remembering it too bad, and the truth likely lies in the middle somewhere (probably much closer to your memories than his).

Keep trying to enjoy the time you will have to yourself now.

Amy M


Me 39 H 36
S 7 S 4
T 15 M 12
H out 8/1/08
OW confirmed 8/6/08
D final on 6/12/09...I'm doing good!