I wanted to say one last thing before I went to bed.
Please dont feel like I am being unsupportive or Mark is, or anyone here for that matter.


I used to be where you are honey. In immense pain that seemed to have no end and confused as to when the roller coaster ride would end.....
I used to go to bed early cause it hurt too much to stay awake, I used to live on Coffee and Cigarettes. I also used to cry myself to sleep at nite. I used to curl my hair everyday every last piece it goes to the middle of my back. Just to find things to do so I wouldnt call him.

I could go on forever.... it was horrific.
But I do know that as much as I could I walked the walk.
I also had set my mini goals and tackled them one at a time.

Mark also made me remember the difference between supposedly loving them and babying them.
My H said he felt like I never loved him either.

NEGLECTED....

I dont believe it is so much the doing it is more in the action.
and you need to get stronger love and stop reacting.

IT WILL NOT HAPPEN OVERNITE... IT WILL TAKE TIME.

I am proud of you honey, I just want to see you focus more on you and less on him.
You are still too much under his thumb. Fine line... between loving and overloving....

It is alot to take in.
Read it and reread it.
*Marks posts*

And please when you can re-read DR.
and get a highlighter!

\:\) Love you too hun , we are here for you.
Take care and God bless....
~Ali