Memories keep sneaking in....I still miss him!

[Treese]

Hi everyone....well D16 is feeling a little better thank you....

I talked to her coach tonight to give her a heads up on how she is feeling...

H just stopped by to get his car....forgot to put something in it...I thought he wasnt coming until tomorrow...must have needed it pretty bad...He went upstairs to see son and my heart immediately started pounding....then he went down to see D16...not down there long and came up and kind of slammed her door....she didn't speak to him...what do I do? It breaks my heart that my family is so torn apart....

He was leaving and I asked him to help me carry some of the trash out and he did...in the pile was a victoria secret bag...

then he took the can down to the curb....he then mentioned that my D21 start taking over her car payment..(the wheels are spinning)...I'm sure the D is getting closer....he is going through everything to make sure he has money to live....then he got in the car and said bye and I said bye....

I went in the house straight to my closet and started crying....geez....when does the crying stop....if I see him I cry...I was sobbing though....thought I was getting better but maybe not....then my D16 came up and I didn't see her and she looked at me and started to cry....I know she is hurting and loves her dad and it is breaking my heart....I called my mom and was crying....of course she said I've got to somehow move on....and I said,. "I still love him"....she said, "I know you do"....

Is there anything I can do about my D16 and talking to her dad....I do feel bad about that....and I know he has got to be hurting over that even though he doesn't say anything about it...

I know this is a long and winding road but I am tired....exhausted....I just want my family back....