I was also feeling alot of pain since early am I think I am trying to come to terms with what is... I think i am still grieving -it comes and goes had a hard day with D13 ..I think she senses my energy and works off it at times I know on the other hand there are many blessings here and my kids and I are surviving, and in time we will be better I guess I just still hurt plain and simple I feel abandoned and betrayed and left with all this responsibilty seems so unfair--
D 13 said H said he "isnt coming on Sundays anymore" I kept the kids last 2 sundays so I dont know if this is h way of getting back? I have to let it go and try to get back to my PMA which I seem to lose easily Its a little hard getting to this stage when you finaaly have to grieve the total M.. I think keeping hope help me to pospone that
peace
married 14 years H 42 bomb 2/07 IDLYA D final 3 /09 M ow D ow
