As hard or painful as it is to read what Mark is saying..... I was about to ask if GOD, SENT HIM TO YOU. SERIOUSLY....
YOU CAN CHOOSE TO SAY TO YOURSELF I do not do those things and I am being loving but he is actually right you are trying to hard and then also getting frustrated with him and then ...
what stuck out to me is when you said I will come home when I feel like it.... is that more of the same? or when you called to say I was on the phone with Brother is that more of the same?
Example.... I was at a outdoor party 2 summers ago.
((( and hubby was having the "time of his life" with OW ( I wasnt 100% sure yet))))
I got nervous. My Kids were having a blast. by the way....
I said to MY BROTHER. I have to go home... ( in a panic more than just a comment). What if XXXXXX comes home right now? My brother says to me...
" If he comes home right now and gets mad cause you arent there then he is the same old XXXXXX."
LIGHTBULB went on and I almost started crying.
He was right.... I called him ( my husband )the next day. After he didnt call me and he was ANNOYED AS HELL
You arent the only one that makse mistakes.
But I need you to get up and brush your knees off and get to work. You will most likely make some small mistakes along the way. BUT I need you to put your nose to the grindstone and start doing... no more trying. YOU CAN DO IT AND WE ARE HERE FOR YOU...
I have been where you are Suzanne.... but you are fighting this so to speak.
It is time to get to work love... it is going to be hard as hell but you can do it. Have a goodnite and think about this please. You need to accept this is going to hurt like hell and you will make it thru~
