What about me?? That is the question. I have made changes that I am very proud of and feel like I am becoming a much better and happier person. I know that I can live without her and will be happy and will be loved. I also know that my sole underling motivation has been to survive this to win her back and all changes have been based on that.
It is time to live for me. It’s the only way to do it and it’s the only way to have the perseverance to fight for my marriage.
We are entering a new training cycle at work so that will be exciting and very busy. I now have my puppy for a month, I have an old car that needs TLC, I am running again with my eye set on the Las Vegas Marathon, I also just got my bike running great and am going to put some good distance on that for cross training.
I am going to be ok. The one area that I am not sure how to deal with is my need for affection. I don't need a woman, but life is so much better with one. This last week and even more now, I do a lot of looking and wondering. I am building what I want in a Wife and I am fearful I will stumble across it in someone else. I am confused now and I am only talking a made up person, I can't imagine the confusion if that was to happen. I also don't know if that is what I want or not.
Me 27, W26 T-12 M-4 SEP 4/29/08 Holding 250 miles Awaiting Support Current
