Getting past the hurt and anger

[Kelly23]

Hi Jeff, thanks for checking in. I took on a part time job, on top of my full time one, when I found out about the affair and have been working a lot this week, tax free weekend here and lots of back to school shopping. I was ready to boot him out and take care of me and the kids myself. Still too scared to quit it since I am not sure if we will stay married or not.

I have barely talked to hubby in the last week. He is working overtime, nights, and I am focusing on getting the kids ready for school, eye doctor appts, clothes shopping, etc.

I have not made any decisions. We go to counseling Wednesday evening and last week it was a big blow up. I am not over the anger at all I guess. It is not even about her anymore. I told him that if she died, things would still be the same between us. He does not understand that. He thinks she was the problem, when the real problem is us.

He kisses me bye and hello when he leaves for work and gets home from work. Besides that there is no touching at all. The other night he decided he wanted to ML but I disagreed. How can he touch me only when he wants sex and think I will be okay with that? It made me really anger.

And today is our wedding anniversary. 17 years. He got home at 8, gets off work at 6, gave a lame excuse about being late and went straight to bed without even mentioning it. Jerk.