Thanks for the advice on posting to others. I've just felt so empty and lacking in advice that I haven't felt it was appropriate yet. Maybe I will give this a try though...
I guess my sitch just seems so negative to me, because it is a complete 180 from the H I used to have. He was always doting, loving, and would joke that if I ever left him he'd follow me around the world until I took him back. He said I was his gift, the love of his life, his princess... God I can hardly bear to type that now. I want so much to call him and tell him how I feel. This is the first day on which he has not contacted me at all, in any way. I really don't know how I am going to cope with this over the next 10 weeks. I can't believe how lucky I was, and how much I took it for granted.
In terms of what else Jody suggested, she said to use the counseling session as an opportunity to show that I was really listening, to show how strong I was, and moreover to say that I understood the need for the physical separation and that I was excited about Poland. I actually did all of that, and did it very well. I don't know how this might have impacted on H though, since he seems to have no emotions these days-at least towards me. She also said that during the lunch (yesterday) I should keep the topics light, act confident etc. I did this about 75%--there was no R talk, but I did mention things in our budget for a few months down the road to see how he would respond--the usual dreaded "let's just see". I tried for more physical contact than he wanted--tried for a kiss on the lips, and shouldn't have. Overll though, it went reasonably well.
OK I am going to look through others' posts now. Thanks again for your help.
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Me:34 H:36 M:5 years T: 8 years Bomb: 07/17/08 I want to be separated for 6 months--I don't know what I want the outcome to be S 07/28/08-11/08/08 Living together ~7 months D Possibly busted?!?!!!
