Better yet, what have I started doing? I'm focused on taking care of me, what I need, what is right for me. I find that writing only about MY life, not someone else's actions, calms me down, lets me face reality, wakes ME up.
I'm a big ole bunch of candles. One wick is on its way out. No wick, no fire, no matter how huge the candle is.
It may be detaching, protecting, healing, moving on or just choosing not to actively participate in hurting myself.
Send her blessings when you start getting upset. It's a balm to your inner pain. This helps YOU.. You.. YOU!!! Do something positively physical, get the Hulk thing going, vent, bless. Do you want a life based on bitterness? At this point your anger is another expression of your pain.
Try removing one of your coping techniques that hurts you. One of mine is overeating lots of sugary items. Day 4, baby... and I'm feeling better.
Stay the heck away from her. Expect crazy crap to happen. When you feel that tingle negative energy coming on, excuse yourself. Remove yourself from the situation. You already know the outcome.
Give it a try, big guy.
*hugs*
What did I do? Sent the photos you saw to the rest of the family.. my children's family. When I think in terms of the kids, answers are really very simple.
