Yes H is seriously unhappy with himself at the moment. He says that it is because all of the decisions he's made in the R have been for me, not for him, to the point where he doesn't even know what makes him happy now. This is why he wants time apart--to figure out on his own what actually makes him happy. I don't know if I would actually call it depression though. He is also being very healthy--rarely drinking, jogging daily, going to yoga etc. So I think he is dealing with things (apart from me!) in a healthy and productive way.
I am seriously going to try and stop worrying about how H is doing, but on the other hand I do want to be there for him, should he need me. He thinks I haven't been there to listen in the past, so I hope I can be at some point now...
I ended up buying a travel book on Poland--am trying to make myself happy about this move to Poland. By all rights I should be thrilled. I am SO lucky to work for a company that is letting me work remotely due to a broken heart. I am trying to keep this in perspective. I have also learned that I actually do have a lot of friends at work. I never knew this before, and am truly overcome with gratitude for this. I am going through all the GAL motions, so am now just waiting for the accompanying contentment to kick in...
OD I hope all is well with you this weekend. Always so nice to hear from you!
ITH
Me:34 H:36 M:5 years T: 8 years Bomb: 07/17/08 I want to be separated for 6 months--I don't know what I want the outcome to be S 07/28/08-11/08/08 Living together ~7 months D Possibly busted?!?!!!
