Hi my lovely friends! Thanks for your messages - I’m sending you love and hugs from the future! My internet at home is playing up, so I’ve only been able to sneakily read your threads at work, but not post. So here goes a long one to make up. I promise its juicy!
Got asked on a date by an older man. Was a fun night, but we had almost nothing in common and I was seriously UN-attracted to him. But being pursued by old guy and coffee date guy, was certainly good for the ego, and also a good reminder of how a man treats a woman when he’s into her!
Did have some minor interactions with H too. One a few weeks ago, but he had a really sore shoulder. I offered to give him a massage, which he said no he thought it wouldn’t help, and then I said we could have lunch, but he said he couldn’t because his shoulder was too sore. I felt like a total fool putting myself out there to be rejected. On the same day coffee date guy and old guy were both texting me asking me if I wanted to catch up. I was basically thinking this is never going to work with H. But then later that night H asked me if I wanted to have dinner with him.. By that time I’d had a good old cry over H being a jerk, and I pretended I didn’t get his message till after dinner time!
The next weekend I went away with a group of friends on a houseboat - it was really fun, and H seemed very curious when I causally dropped it into conversation.
This weekend was the wedding of mutual friends. After the disaster of my trusty hairdresser moving away, I very bravely had my haircut by a new hairdresser the morning of the wedding. Anyway the haircut looks great - my outfit was super hot (got lots of comments). H & I had a nice time at the wedding which was a lunch time event, followed by cocktails in the evening. I tried very hard to do the extended eye contact (as per OD) without being weird. I tired to talk to H but still talk to other guests. But honestly I never saw H check me out, and I couldn’t see any baby steps. When he arrived I gave him a big smile and motioned for him to sit next to me, but he chose to sit next to my brother. Which makes what happens next sort of unexpected….
So today H comes over to drop my car registration form off. I prepared some nibbles and we sat on my deck enjoying the beautiful weather and chatting. I live in a really great spot, right on the river and its very peaceful - I’m very spoilt. H is living in a dingy apartment (not that I’ve been there) right on a major road. He hints that he misses living here (but not misses me???). Anyway he makes a move to go home, and we stand up and have quite a long hug. Then he moves to go away, somehow this leads to another long hug followed by some kissing. Which leads to some serious kissing for a good 30 minutes. Felt so good….. During this time I’m trying to figure out what I should do next, and I figure I don’t want to come on too strong , want to make him want more. He clearly wanted to move on to the next level! So finally I make a joke about him needing to get home, and we say goodbye (actually we say goodbye several times, only to be interrupted by a bit more kissing).
So I guess I’m feeling really happy. Was so nice to kiss him. He sent me a text after he left saying “you’re a babe”. I’m still unsure whether I want a R with him though??? But I could do the kissing again.
I was thinking its so weird because in those other interactions I couldn’t pick up on the baby steps…. I actually had a good cry in between the lunch part of the wedding and the cocktail part, because he had seemed so un-interested in me.
I’m trying to be a friend and not have any expectations about what could happen next. Am very proud of myself for not bringing up any R talks - its been tempting but I am determined to play it cool.
