Every one at that party would have thought we were the happy couple we had always been, she even fooled me, that’s why when we got home and she instantly turned cold I was confused. I did not have to say anything she could see it on my face and she said here we go again.
Same old story about how I have completely ruined her life and I am such a horrible person. She just won’t drop her preconceived notions about me, and see me for the person I am. She adamantly said I can be your friend but I want nothing to do with this marriage or being your wife, why don't you get that. When she got to the part about the only thing that will make her happy is a D, I placed my ring on the bed and said what ever makes you happy.
I told her she was not treating me as a friend or seeing me for me, and that I felt really sad that she could not see herself through my eyes and know how I really feel for her. I asked her please leave the past in the past. I don't blame her for anything and the only way we can move on as anything even resembling friends is do it with clean slates.
Not looking good here, and I am not sure what I want. Can we even possibly hope to survive this with all this distance? She has so much stuff to work out on her own before we could possibly even have anything. I think that it is over and I don't know what to do now. I won't fight a D but I won't do the work either,
Me 27, W26 T-12 M-4 SEP 4/29/08 Holding 250 miles Awaiting Support Current
