Confused and Bewildered

[7 Year Itch]

So,as seems to be the pattern.......... good day followed by confusing day.

H just left. Tonight was less than stellar. It started good. He came with groceries and cooked (that hasn't happened ina long time). We had just walked in the door from the wedding so he did get to see me gussied up. Didn't say anything, but I did catch some glances.

So we finished dinner, and I gave him his time with the girls. I worked in my garden. We came in, got the girls to bed, then he proceeded to sit out in the living room, and never address me. Finally he came in my room and said he was leaving. I asked if I could have a hug, and he said no. I sort of joked and said........ "oh, come on your turd" to which he said.."No. I need to take a night off from this". Whatever that means.

Said he's "trying to clear his head". I just hate this. It's like every time I feel a glimmer of hope, I'm immediately brought back down to earth by his actions or comments.

I starting to get really annoyed. It's like either "$hit or get of the pot" ya know. Now obviously ,I don't want him to really get off the pot, so I'd never say that to him, but I am so freakin' tired of limbo.

Chris