Thanks Enlighten...I know you are right...I know it deep down...I just have to get there.

I don't believe he will come back...I've lost my hope and I need to find it again.

He doesn't have much at the townhouse...no computer, no TV..no phone (except his cell) a bed, nightstands, two lamps and the patio furniture...and his clothes. I hope he sits in the silence and really thinks about things. There are more hours a day for work and being alone than he will be able to spend with MOW. I don't think much will change on that front. The difference is that he won't be coming home....he won't be calling me or emailing me nor I him.

In 24 years we have never gone more than maybe 8 hours without talking. We have only been apart maybe 10 days total. We were a team...we did everything together.

Being alone...is going to take some getting used to.

BA

Me:43
H:48
M:24 yrs T: 26 yrs
2 kids
ILYNILWYA 8-07 - MOW 9-07
H moved out 8-2-08 Back 8-18-08
Affair continues
Back home but not emotionally