Thank you so much for response. Do you have any tips about how I can do this? (detach more)I have spent half of my life with this man and yes, built my life around him. I think its the uncertainty is killing me- for the 6 months after the bomb while I was sorting out divorce papers etc I was grieving but getting on with things. Now,while he is so undecided I cant seem to focus on anything else for long.I have found some part time teaching work for September and that will really help-weekends are the worst.I know I should get a grip but have been told I will feel this awful for at least 2 years.I also am beginning to despise myself-after all I am nearly 60 not a needy child!
