A, You can't move because you've not detached enough from the situation. My impression from your postings is that your entire life hinges on your h. A, you had a life long before your h entered into it and now that he's off in La La Land, you are going to have to dig very deep and pull that self reliant, independent woman back out of the bag and look at yourself as single for the time being. There isn't any guarantee that he's going to want to return any time soon, if ever. It's very, very important that you start carving out a life without him being the center for now.
He's struggling w/himself right now and yes, he's confused somewhat about what he wants. Just leave him out there to find the answers he's looking for, but in the mean time, find yourself in this entire mess and live your life to the fullest.
BTW, I'm very happy to read that you enjoyed your holiday.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
