W dropped of the kids yesterday. I could see the same pain in my D's eyes as when W came to pick her up the other day. It kills me to see that. She obviously hates this as much as I do, but she's so tough, never says anything negative about it. W gave both kids big kisses, but skipped out on me. Of course W was late to drop them off. She's always late with the kids or not at home on time when I drop off. She recently said that i have shown I am 'capable of being alone with the kids'. Duh. What does she think I was doing while she was away on all those trips? I took that as complete disrespect. She brought it up because the kids have been telling her how much they miss me when they are with her. I dont get that from them about her when they are with me. Thus she said I am a great father. She is pointing out 'change' to me, but says I cannot change for her, nor does she want me to. Such BS.
I was explaining some of the recent events and dialog with my attorney. She asked me if I thought there was a chance we could reconcile, and if so, she could ask to move back our court date. I told her I wasnt so optimistic, but seemed to be getting some strange signals from W. So, she pinged W attorney to ask about moving trial date back a couple months. W immediately shot that down and is upholding original date in december. Thus, a bummer to me. W is going to get a huge financial slap in the face if she goes through with this.
I have kids through next weekend. W certainly asking a lot of questions of what our plans are. I was pretty vague about it. But, she shows no interest in me whatsoever. I dont know what I did along the way for her to act this way to me. In looking back the past few months, it seems to me that I receive all the blame from her for this.
