Im done.

[bluerain]

Bt, I absolutely feel like the other side is within sight, like its just over there, I can choose to keep going forward, or turn back.

I know that I can get through the uncertainty, and I know that we can repair our broken trust, but I need some kind of indication from him that he wants to. The thing is, he does not communicate, never has, it was one of our problems as a couple. Thats something that must be different if we have any chance at all, but I think that it is going to be something that keeps him from asking to come home, or trying to talk to me at all about repairing the damage done. Im not sure if I want to conquer that. I dont want to force him to talk to me, then just have him clam up in 4 months and have this all start over again!

Hes gone for 6 more days, and when he gets back hes supposed to bring me a handgun, I want him to show me how to use it and clean it, that should be a good, light interaction. Im not sure if I should pack anymore of his crap, it seems to make him pretty sad, so I think that Ill stop until I talk to him again.