The Wifey - Still working.

[The Wifey]

I have to tell you guys I am impatient and greedy at times. I want to slip him something and have him just get out of his fog. I know that isn't possible.

One really great thing last night. When he came home I was outside tanning. He came home to make sure the dog was taken care of. I said that I could change and go for a ride with him if he liked. He said ok!

I changed into my clothes so fast that I left my sandles strewn across the living room rug. We rode for such a long time and I was so very happy.

The impatience is this morning. He brought up R talk and how he is always going to love me and be connected with me even in "the worst case scenario." I told him I couldn't think about that scenario right now. That I was always going to love him no matter what.

It just left me with the scary oily feeling in my stomache. He went to spend time picking blueberries with his father for a while. I'm at the library to post here and then I am going fishing.

I just got the Divorce Recovery book and the Keeping Love Alive Cd set in the mail yesterday. So I won't be on here too long. I want to listen to the set and start on the book.

I so wish he could read the book or listen to the cd's. It makes me want to burst with how much I love him. But I'm being a good girl. I want this to work. So I just listened mostly this morning without reacting.

Today, I'm going to fish and then I'm going to see if the weather will cooperate and go to the drive-in tonight. The sun is out, so I might do a little tanning. I need to do laundry and some other stuff at the house. Need desperately to keep busy when I feel like this.

I hate feeling scared. I hate feeling like I have absolutely no way to reach him. Have to keep reminding myself that this takes time and patience. H and the M are worth the hard work and effort.