Back from a great holiday and tried hard not to think too much about my poor marriage and the thread its dangling on. We (he) has rescheduled our finance talk to 7th August -Thursday.Of course he could chicken out again but I dont think so. I was so upset last time I said lets just divorce and let court sort settlement but he begged for a rescheduled meeting.There are 5 options that I can see open to us the first is divorce the other 4 are practical financial ones. I will try to be non emotional although after 3 months it will be all I can do not to throw my arms around him. He is so confused and scared.He says things like " You are so dear to me....not a day goes by that I dont think about you" But if this is so -and I sense he is telling the truth- why wont he work on the marriage? Its so difficult to be separated, in limbo and neither in nor out of a relationship. I feel I cant move.Cant imagine my life without him in it although weve been living apart a year now .Somehow we both keep holding on.
