Im done.

[bluerain]

I am really trying to remind myself that just because their R ended does NOT mean that he wants to come home, and that I have to expect him to greive while he gets over thier R. How long? I have no idea. I have been in such a good place lately, I dont want to go back to what I was doing before. I absolutely would consider reconciliation, but I dont know if thats what he wants, I guess I should ask him, but Im not sure how, or when to do that, or should I just wait for him to come to me? I went on a date (it was great!), and I have another one tonite, I dont know if I can even go now. Its not right to be dating while I want to reconcile, but I dont want to let him make me stagnate again!?!?!?!? I need a freaking valium!