Not sure why I've waited so long to come here

[Snow White]

Tonight was another tough one. Just more bad than good lately. My GAL acivity was joining a co-ed ball team this summer. It has done wonders for me- when I'm there anyways. I have a great time, have met some great people and it takes my mind off things. Most of the time D has a babysitter(family) but 2 times now I have brought her with me. Lots of people bring their kids. There is a park there. Well tonight she came, she went to the park - where I could still see her - and got stung by a bee.

She wanted to call and tell her dad on the way home so we did. I ended up getting told. I would NOT be taking her anymore, if I could not get a sitter than I should not be going. She should not be unsupervised, that this would never have happened if I was watching her. I kind of lost it. I have been a single parent for 4 months and really a lot more than that because he went out 4 times a week before he left us. I told him nothing can happen to her when he's with her cause he never is, and I am a good mom and doing the best I can and in the next 14 years while I take care of her by myself, she might break an arm, or get sick but that won't make it my fault just because he couldn't be bothered to be there.

He backed down and said he didn't mean it that way, I really think a lot of the time he doesn't realize how he sounds. He then came over and brought us drumstick ice creams before going out for his night of leisure "drinking with his friend". I am growing very, very weary.