Honestly, my h burned me so many times with his coming and going, I wasn't sure I wanted him to come home. Sure I did but in the back of my mind I was thinking what if it doesn't work out and I have to go through it all over again. I had told myself I stood for so long at least I needed to give it my all one more time. I also said that if he left again that would be it. I had grown stronger and knew that I could manage without my h if I had to.
I also questioned myself did I still love my h as I did before and could I get over the A.In some of my later threads I had said that I didn't have the strong feelings as I once had with my h. I didn't know if I loved him as much as I once did. Does that make any sense?
