No I don't really believe it is all my fault. I know sometime and somewhere in the past 24 years I have made mistakes, spoken unkindly or whatever that may have contributed to how H feels now....but his anger is so much deeper than that....he has grievances against his parents for not encouraging him to do more when he was younger....grievances against coaches who spoke unkindly to him....grievances against his boss...his former bosses and coworkers...he has kept tabs on everything negative ever said to him....he has convinced himself that his unhappiness has been for his entire lifetime and has rewritten our history together in his mind to include our R in his misery.
He can't be helped....he has to help himself....he has to love himself first and I don't know if that will ever happen.
You are right he is hurting the one who loves him the most....but I don't know if the damage he has caused can ever be undone.
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Me:43 H:48 M:24 yrs T: 26 yrs 2 kids ILYNILWYA 8-07 - MOW 9-07 H moved out 8-2-08 Back 8-18-08 Affair continues Back home but not emotionally
