Oldtimers: Return or not..what finally happened?

[peacetoday]

S
Im sorry you are in pain
but maybe the pain is good and it will bring you clarity
we cant live in denial and on wishful thinking forever
maybe there needs to be a point when we say no more
but that is up to each of us
I meditate and feel the D is the right thing now
many months ago I meditated and felt standing was right
I always thought H would return
now I am letting go of that hope
I pray H will be OK and not do any further damage to himself, kids or our business
He has already hurt me as no one has ever
its out of my hands
continue taking care of yourself
feel the pain..release it
clarity will come
peace