You know before the "bomb" no one would have ever known I had any kind of self doubt.And that would have included me.I hate that I feel this way.
I guess it is natural.But damn it I don't like it.How do I change that?
I can tell myself that I'm worth it.But that's not the same as knowing and feeling it.
boy, that was me too!
My C put it like this for me "Cat03 doesnt' need a man's approval, speciall stbx's approval to feel worthy" That man does not complete me, at one point I did think so, but due to the fact he's betrayed and lied to me I am not part of that man's life anymore. I'm not all 100% there (but pretty close) about healing my self esteem, but it's a work that takes time.
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.
Wow what a downer I was the other night.Well I'm back to my happy self today.Had a good day.Worked all day.But my boss let me off easy.I have somehow hurt my ankel.It's swollen a little bit.And has this weird tingling thing going on.
Maybe I twisted it.When I'm not at work or home I'm usually in high heels.Cause I'm short and don't want to learn how to hem my pants.lol
I prob.twisted it without paying attention.lol
League guy and I are doing good.We are still friends.But we have decided to just see where this goes.We have an agreement.We will respect the others right to change their minds as long as we are respectful in how we do it.
Kids are ok.D21 is getting big.And if their is something yummy in the house you have to hide it from her.lol We used to just put our names on it if we wanted it.Right now she can't read.lol
D13 is not happy.She goes tuesday for some shots.D13 does not like shots.D13 has no choice.lol She is getting the hpv shot.I heard it is nasty shot.I haven't decided if i should tell her its a biggie or just let her find out on her own.
S23 liked to watch when he got shots.Boys are weird.lol
S18 has a date Sat.He works so much he hasn't been on a date for about a year.I didn't even know he was talking to a girl.About damn time he did something fun.
So thats it for now.Not much going on.Just the same ol stuff.Staying off my feet tonight.D13 is having cereal for dinner.
I guess I don't get to go dancing tomorrow.O well I'm not good at it anyway.
Later Friends Briget
The grass is always greener over the septic tank... Erma Bombeck
Treat hate with Love... DR. Martin Luther King
Hi Karen,Yes we will be going on more dates.We were going to go dancing tonight.But the ankle is worse.I woke up this morning with fluid all around the ankle bone.And it is doing this really weird thing.When I touch it it send this nerve thingy down to my pinky toe.Kind of like when you hit your funny bone.Very strange.But I'm strange.So it matches.lol
I have tomorrow off so I'm gonna just stay off of it all day tomorrow.I might soak it in some epstsom salt.lol How old am I?I'm now soaking my feet.That's what my mom does.
Trip,
I'm doing good.I'm feeling better today than usual.I'm not so tired today.I got a good nights rest last night.That always helps.
I'm fixin to take a nap.I may not be able to dance.But darn it I'm going out somewhere tonight and have a good time.D22 I keep forgeting she had her birthday on the 29th.Is staying in with D13.They plan on making brownies and watching a movie.
D22 hasn't been sleeping.The baby seems to like her left side.That is the side D22 has always slept on.lol
We were looking up baby stuff online yesterday.My grandbaby is the size of a bell pepper.
I can't wait for this baby to get here.I'm just so excited.She thinks it is a girl.But I think it is a boy.Who knows.It could be twins.lol Then we could both be right.
Well off to take a nap.It is raining again.Nice nap weather.I think the weatherman said it has been ten days in a row we have gotten rain.It sure feels like it.
Later Friends Briget
The grass is always greener over the septic tank... Erma Bombeck
Treat hate with Love... DR. Martin Luther King