I have to say I am feeling quite sad tonight. Even though he is messing me around and causing me so much aggrevation I miss him so much. It doesn't happen very often but just sometimes I feel like the dull ache I normally feel jumps at me and stabs me over and over. It almost stiffles me that I can't say 'I love you' to him. Then I get really cross because I still love someone that is causing me so much pain and that is just plain dumb, like I am asking for it.
I have a fun weekend planned with some uni friends which should involve good food, alcohol and laughs so maybe this is just Friday night blues. Luckily there is a good detective programme on at 9 o'clock so I will have a duvet evening watching that. Still, this feeling sucks!
